Saturday, 15 December 2012

Salah Faham..


Misunderstood... 



Hey there. It’s me again. How are you guys lately? I’m fine rasanya.


 Hmm, today I wanna talk about one topic yang sangat penting n perlukan perjelasan selanjutnya. Sebab bg aku perkara ini penting untuk di selesaikan.

So, Korang tahu apa itu salah faham? Aku rasa aku tahu.
Salah faham adalah keadaan dimana bukan itu yang sebenarnya terjadi tetapi itulah yang dianggapkan terjadi.


Guys, boleh ke kalau sehari kita sayangkan seseorang but next day kita buat keputusan untuk benci orang tuh mcm dialah orang paling jahat dalam dunia ini? 

Lagi-lagi orang itu pernah menjadi orang yang sangat penting dalam hidup kita satu masa dahulu. Tiada sedikitkah kepercayaan  kita terhadap dia? At least sewaktu masih bersama, dialah orang yang kita sayang dan hormati.


Kita betul-betul tak kenal ke orang itu apabila kita mula membuat keputusan untuk berhenti hidup dengannya?  Betulkah dia menjadi “orang asing” selepas kata-kata perpisahan itu diucapkan? Betulkah?


Dan kenapa selepas semuanya berakhir mulalah timbul kata-kata menguris perasaan dan penghinaan? Tuduhan-tuduhan tidak berasas mula timbul dan sikap saling menyalah mula wujud. Kepercayaan yang dibina hilang dibawa angin dan sayang yang dicurah umpama diletakkan di bawah telapak kaki. Begitu kejamkan manusia berubah?


Sebenarnya aku tertanya-tanya kenapakah kepercayaan yang di bina hilang sekelip mata, sayang yang ada dalam diri hilang begitu sahaja dan kita berlagak seolah-olah bersama orang itu tak adalah salah satu kesilapan yang paling besar yang kita pernah buat.


Betulkah kenagan yang kita bina selama ini tidak bermakna pada diri kita? Yeah I know, people move on but untuk semua kegembiraan dan kesakitan yang dilalui bersama-sama tidakkah boleh kenagan itu di hormati?

 Lupakah kita yang orang itu pernah buat kita tersenyum dan orang itu juga yang habiskan masa bersama-sama kita untuk mengenal apa itu hidup. Kenapa bila semuanya berakhir, kita terus membenci?


Orang kata manusia berubah. Yeah, manusia berubah tp manusia itu bukan hilang ingatan. Pasti terselit sedikit dalam hatinya rasa kasih yang tulus terhadap orang yang pernah disayangi itu.  Tetapi aku pelik juga kerana di sebalik kasih sayang yang tulus itu wujudnya kata-kata hinaan dan penuh kebencian.  Really Secepat itukah manusia berubah?
Hmmm…


Oleh itu aku berharap disini demi kenangan dan semua senyuman yang pernah dicipta, hentikanlah membenci dan menghina. Berhentikanlah mengatakan bahawa saat-saat bersama orang itu adalah satu kesalahan dalam hidupmu. hormatilah orang itu. N percaya padanya walaupun sedikit kerana jika dirimu mampu menyayanginya dan mempercayainya sewaktu bersama, pastinya kamu akan kenal siapa dirinya yang sebenar dan ketulusan hatinya mencintai kamu dulu..

Hidup ini bukan berkisar tentang dirimu sahaja, ianya wujud orang lain  untuk melengkapi dirimu. Walaupun kamu sudah berhenti menyayangi dirinya dan hilang sudah keinginan untuk bersamanya, bersabarlah.. Mungkin mudah bagimu, tetapi terlalu sukar bagi dirinya. Dan tanamkan sedikit kepercayaan terhadap dirinya bahawa dia bukan seperti apa yang kamu tuduh dan katakan. Berfikirlah, kalau dia seteruk itu, mengapa satu masa dahulu kamu menghabiskan masa dengannya..


Kerana orang itu masih menghormati mu. Masih mengharapkan semua perkara terbaik berlaku pada dirimu. Malah dia juga masih mengharapkan agar segala kebahagian di dunia ini milikmu. 
Insha ALLAH..


Jangan salah sangka, apa yang kamu sangkakan tak semestinya benar. Kamu katakan pada mereka supaya jangan menilai, tp kamu sendiri menilai orang yang pernah kamu sayangi dulu. Dan kamu Menilai dari semua keburukkannya..
P/S : ini adalah apa yang aku rasa. Hormatilah pandangan aku.. Semoga hidupmu dihiasi memori indah. Selamat tinggal.



Take care. :’)

Wednesday, 12 December 2012

Letter for my father...

Dear ayah,




Tadi orang mimpi ayah. tah kenapa tah setelah sekian lama orang tak mimpi ayah. orang kata mimpi tu mainan tidur tapi kenapa rindu ayah sangat-sangat now. Arghhhh! :(

Hari ni orang mimpikan ayah, tadi org tidur kan orang mimpi ayah senyum kat orang. pastu ayah bagi barang kat orang. Bila orang bangun n capai hp nal call ayah, orang macam tersedar yang ayah dah takde. Dah pergi dah dari hidup orang. Sedih kan? haha

Kadang-kadang orang rasa macam ayah ada kat johor. Tunggu orang balik cuti and waiting for me. I mean giler kan perasaan ini? Macam-macam dia boleh buat kita rasa. Tapi yang penting orang tahu Ayah tak dapat tunggu orang balik cuti pun.. So yeah..

Ayah, you know when u gone, i dont think i can't forgive myself for not telling you how much i love you. How degilnya org ni ayah. Tak pernah ambil peluang masa ayah ada untuk cakap itu semua.  How degil nya anak ayah ni kan. Ego sungguh. Well, like father like daughter kan? HAHAHA. *Crying* :'(

So now here i am ayah, missing you like crazy and almost become crazy.. HAHA. 


Wednesday, 28 November 2012

surviving..

Be thankful





As u might know, the head of a company
survived 9/11 because his son started
kindergarten.
another fellow was alive
because it was his turn to bring donuts.
One woman was late because her alarm
clock didn't go on on time.
 One was late
because of being stuck on the NJ Turnpike
because of an auto accident.
One of them missed his bus.
One spilled
food on her clothes and had to take time
to change.
One's car wouldn't start.
One went back to answer the telephone.
One had a child that dawdled and didn't
get ready as soon as he should have
One couldn't get a taxi.
The one that struck me was the man who
put on a new pair of shoes that morning,
took the various means to get to work but
before he got there, he developed a blister
on his foot. He stopped at a drugstore to
buy a Band-Aid.
That is why he is alive
today..


Now, when I am stuck in traffic, miss an
elevator,
 turn back to answer a ringing
telephone.. all the little things that annoy
me, I think t
o myself, this
 is exactly where
God wants me to be at this very moment..

Next time ur morning seems to be going
wrong: The children are slow getting
dressed, u can't seem to find the car keys,
u hit every traffic light, don't get mad or
frustrated..

God is at work watching over u. May God
continue to bless u with all those annoying
little things and may u remember their
possible purpose..

take care. :')

Smart.. LOL


LOL 




A wealthy man decided to go on a safari
in Africa. He took his faithful pet
dachshund along for company. One day,
the dachshund starts chasing butterflies
and before long the dachshund discovers
that he is lost.

So, wandering about, he notices a leopard
heading rapidly in his direction with the
obvious intention of having him for lunch.

The dachshund thinks, "I'm in deep
trouble now!" Then he noticed some
bones on the ground close by, and
immediately settles down to chew on the
bones with his back to the approaching
cat.

Just as the leopard is about to leap, the
dachshund exclaims loudly, "Boy, that was
one delicious leopard. I wonder if there
are any more around here."

Hearing this, the leopard halts his attack
in mid-stride, as a look of terror comes
over him, and slinks away into the trees.

"Whew," says the leopard. "That was
close. That dachshund nearly had me."

Meanwhile, a monkey, who had been
watching the whole scene from a nearby
tree, figures he can put this knowledge to
good use and trade it for protection from
the leopard. So, off he goes.
But the dachshund saw him heading after
the leopard with great speed, and figured
that something must be up.
The monkey soon catches up with the
leopard, spills the beans and strikes a deal
for himself with the leopard. The leopard
is furious at being made a fool of and says,
"Here monkey, hop on my back and see
what's going to happen to that conniving
canine."

Now the dachshund sees the leopard
coming with the monkey on his back, and
thinks, "What am I going to do now?" But
instead of running, the dog sits down with
his back to his attackers, pretending he
hasn't seen them yet. And, just when
they get close enough to hear, the
dachshund says:

"Where's that darn monkey? Sent him off
half an hour ago to bring me another
leopard."

take care. :')

Sunday, 21 October 2012

Love the way you Lie II


My short terms love story. HAHA. :((






On the first page of our story
The future seemed so bright
Then this thing turned out so evil
I don't know why I'm still surprised
Even angels have their wicked schemes
And you take that to new extremes
But you'll always be my hero
Even though you've lost your mind



Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Ohhh, I love the way you lie



[Rihanna's Part 2]
Now there's gravel in our voices
Glass is shattered from the fight
And this tug of war, you'll always win
Even when I'm right
'Cause you feed me fables from your head
With violent words and empty threats
And it's sick that all these battles
Are what keeps me satisfied



Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Ohhh, I love the way you lie




So maybe I'm a masochist
I try to run but I don't wanna ever leave
Til the walls are goin' up
In smoke with all our memories


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[Eminem's Part]
It's morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face
Smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction
Hush baby, speak softly, tell me you're awfully sorry 
That you pushed me into the coffee table last night
So I can push you off me

Try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me
Run out the room and I'll follow you like a lost puppy
Baby, without you, I'm nothing, I'm so lost, hug me
Then tell me how ugly I am, but that you'll always love me

Then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the
Destructive path that we're on, two psychopaths but we
Know that no matter how many knives we put in each other's backs
That we'll have each other's backs, 'cause we're that lucky
Together, we move mountains, let's not make mountains out of molehills, 

You hit me twice, yeah, but who's countin'?
I may have hit you three times, I'm startin' to lose count
But together, we'll live forever, we found the youth fountain
Our love is crazy, we're nuts, but I refused counsellin'

This house is too huge, if you move out I'll burn all two thousand
Square feet of it to the ground, ain't shit you can do about it
With you I'm in my f-ckin' mind, without you, I'm out it



Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because 
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie




This is for you.. my heart hurts... T__T
take care :'(

Thursday, 11 October 2012

Judika...

Hey there. Lama tak update blog. Busy btol aku skang. yelah, mahasiswi kan. hehe. *gediks* anyway, kali ni aku nak update pasal satu lagu yang aku dengar kat kafe tadi time nak beli makanan. Lagu ni memang dah lama, n aku ni biasalah selalu ketinggalan skit bab-bab lagu gini. KPOP lover lah katakan. HAHAHA. So, ni lagunya. Enjoy.. :') 



Ni liriknya..


Lirik Lagu Aku Yang Tersakiti – Judika
Pernahkah kau merasa jarak antara kita
Kini semakin terasa setelah kau kenal dia
Aku tiada percaya teganya kau putuskan
Indahnya cinta kita yang tak ingin ku akhiri
Kau pergi tinggalkanku

Tak pernahkah kau sadari akulah yang kau sakiti
Engkau pergi dengan janjimu yang telah kau ingkari
Oh tuhan tolonglah aku hapuskan rasa cintaku
Aku pun ingin bahagia walau tak bersama dia

Memang takkan mudah bagiku tuk lupakan segalanya
Aku pergi untuk dia

Tak pernahkah kau sadari akulah yang kau sakiti
Engkau pergi dengan janjimu yang telah kau ingkari
Oh tuhan tolonglah aku hapuskan rasa cintaku
Aku pun ingin bahagia walau tak bersama dia
(walau tak bersama dia)

Oh tuhan tolonglah aku hapuskan rasa cintaku
Aku pun ingin bahagia walau tak bersama dia

take care :')

Sunday, 23 September 2012

DONE! DONE! DONE! DONE! YAHOOO!!!


Hey guys, korang nak tahu tak yg aku sangat happy now. Sebabnya, event NICE DAY dah habis!! haha.
Lega rasa hati aku. satu event dah setel. tinggal lagi satu nama 3K. Harap2 lah jadi 3K ni sebab aku dah tak sabar nak buat aktiviti. (even aku selalu merungut penat) HAHA.

NICE DAY actually mcm event untuk eratkan hubungan silaturahim antara Senior and Junior. kiteorg ada ice breaking, explorace and talent show. Aku ada join masa sem satu, so sem 3 ni aku join untuk conduct event ni. hehehe.

So event ni berlangsung selama 3 hari. Dari hari pertama sampai hari last memang putus segala urat-urat kat badan aku. Yelah, 3 hari berturut-turut aku balik pukul 3 lagi siap dengan meeting and rehearsal sume. (aku dpr jawatan ass S/U) So boleh tahan lah busy but aku banyak goyang kaki gak kot. hahaha. 

Dipendekkan cerita, DAY 1 dimulakan dengan pendaftaran and pembentukkan kumpulan. Juniors dibahagikan kepada 16 group, satu group tak lebih 10 org dengan sorang kapten senior. So lepas tu mula lah sesi berkenalan, cipta bendera, slogan and lain-lain. But part paling best bila AJK yg pandai dance buat persempahan pembukaan malam tu. dan nak tahu tak diorg dance lagi apa?? Lagu FANTASTIC BABY from BIGBANG!! Aku masa tu mmg rasa PROUD as VIP lah. hehe :))


Day 2 plak just berlangsung explorace mcm biasa. ada beberapa station yang diorg kena pergi dan kena buat apa yang disuruh. Ada yang kena lari berkumpulan, cipta roda dari surat khabar dan macam2 lagi lah. MEMANG HAPPENING! Aku day 2 duduk kat bahagian music, so aku asking bukak lagu KPOP je semua. Terutamanya lagu GDRAGON - CRAYON. haha.


Day 3 adalah hari talent show. Setiap group kena buat persembahan bagi tema yang ditetapkan. Ada tema dance satu Malaysia, dance parody Super Junior & Girl Generation dan mcm2 lagi lah. Aku berdiri pun nak gelak je even tengah bertugas. Hehe. The best part tentang day 3 ni ada majlis award skali. so MR. EON, MISS EON, BEST JUNIOR (MALE AND FEMALE) antara kategori yang dia bagi hadiah. Aku tak leh VOTE, tp semua yang aku pilih menang. Terjerit-jerit gak lah. HAHAHA.

dan akhirnya semua berakhir dengan aman. Aku balik dulu coz diorg ada ceremony yg lain skit. Takyah sebut lah k. hehe. So now, jom tengok gambar!! :))


masa xtvt day 1 :)

explorace time. :))


kat sini untuk buka lagu-lagu KPOP. Budak gurl ni baik dengan aku. hehe :)

dengan GEE masa day 3. Dia biro protocol. Kena make up skit. hehe.

Ni masa day 1. hehe


okay, Yg tepi atas tu dengan YONG, vice president.
Yg tepi sebelah sini dengan WENG, bendahari
Yg bawah tepi tu dengan TK, ex ketua event dulu
Yg bawah sebelah sini dengan JOSEPH, best Junior.
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Dengan salah satu calon Mr.EON. The only malay candidate from sabah. hehe :P

DAN INILAH MR.EON!! Cute right? Talent dia mlm tu dance lagu MR. TAXI Girl Generation. :)) 

HAHAHA itu saja lah untuk post kali ni. Hehe. Next time aku post lagi. Bubye!! :) 


Take care :')

Thursday, 20 September 2012

One day.. :)

:')




One day you’ll meet a guy. And ultimately, he’s going to find out. How you chew, how you sip, how you dance, how you smell at every point in the day. The fact that most of your friends are shallow. How your face looks underneath all your makeup. How you love chocolate, how you can be hyper at times, how certain games and shows make you really happy. How cranky you can get when you’re tired, how you think you look bad in all your Facebook photos. He’s going to know everything about you. And you know what? He’s still going to love you.


Take care. :')


Tuesday, 18 September 2012

Past is Past.. :")

Past is past.. 

Hey there. Hmm.. how are you? i'm fine. but a little bit home sick. huhuhu.

act post kali ni nak cerita bout kisah lalu. Semua org ada masa lalu kan? so how ur past? okay? terrible? heaven? if sume okay baguslah. 

Aku ni sebenarnya tadi ada terjumpa diari lama. Lama sangat. actually diari masa aku tingkatan enam bawah dan tingkatan 6 atas. So as sape yang rapat dengan aku tahulah yang time tu aku ada skit giler. Eh, banyaklah gak. hahaha. 

So PAST ni hard to face kan? pernah rasa tak mcm sesak je nafas bila terpandang or teringat something dari dunia lalu kita? Camtu lah aku rasa tadi. Aku buka diari tuh, aku belek satu-satu. dan setiap tulisan yg aku tulis semuanya. Aku hayati semuanya. Ada muka surat yang aku tak sanggup nak baca... tapi ada juga muka surat yang aku hampir mengalirkan air mata gembira..  HAHAHA. 

Anyways, Ada beberapa quotes (actually banyak coz aku jiwang gak wei. HAHA) yang aku simpan dalam diari tuh n today aku nak share skit. Ni antaranya...  


Oftentimes we say goodbye to the person we love without waiting to, thought that doeesn't mean that we're stopped loving them or we're stopped to care, sometimes GOODBYE is a painful way to say I LOVE YOU...

 NEVER lose hope on the person you have chosen to LOVE, If he would always be the reason why your heart aches, who cares? he'd still be the very why your HEART beats anyway... 

There is nothing more painful than the person whom you love is lying on your shoulder crying for the person whom they love...

How did you magically make me miss you, think of you and love you this much? I wish i had the same superpowers too so that you'll say you miss me, think of me and love me so much too!! <3  

Oklah, ni dulu lah yg aku share. Banyak quotes yg aku simpan dalam diari tu but tak suprise lah kan kalau kuar sume. HAHA. 

So...Hmmm take care. :'))


Tuesday, 11 September 2012

I'm sorry...




I am sorry that I made you cry, 
It hurts me so bad that I want to die.
In you I have found a love that is true,
And my heart is filled with love for you.

I am sorry that I have hurt you and you are in pain,
But without you, my life will not be the same.
As I sit here writing this to you,
I am crying, thinking how much I was a fool.
I love you so much and I am sorry that we got into a fight,
I just wish that I could have made it up to you on that night,
I don't want to break up and I wish we didn't have this fight,
I just wish that this were so,
I never have loved anyone else as much as I loved you,
I thought that you should know.

I am sorry whatever should I do?
I want to take the time and apologize to you.
You fill my heart with joy, and you make my life complete,
Every time you come around me my heart skips a beat.
I leave my phone on and I look by it every night,
Just in case you call me if you feel something is not right.

Every night I think of you as I lay in the dark,
And I close my eyes and I see you holding on to me with your head against my heart.
Before I go and put this poem to an end,
I want to say I am sorry and it will never happen again.



Take care :')

You know...


i feel it..




You know that feeling ?
when you are just waiting,
Waiting to get home into your room,
Close the door ,fall into bed,
And just let everything out that you kept in all day 


That feeling of both relief and desperation
Nothing is wrong ,
But nothing is right either!
And you're tired 
Tired of everything tired of nothing 
and you just want someone to be there and tell you it is okey ,But no one is going to be there 
And you know you have to be strong for yourself,
cuz no one can fix you .
But you are tired of waiting 

Tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everybody else,Tired of being strong 
And for once you just want it to be easy
To simple ,to helped ,to be saved ,
But you know you wont be 
But you are still hoping
And you are still wishing
And you are still staying strong and fighting 
With tears in your eyes 
You are fighting ! 


Take care. :(

Sunday, 2 September 2012

PAID IN FULL!


A little boy and his mom.. :")




A little boy came up to his mother in the kitchen one evening while she was fixing supper, and handed her a piece of paper that he had been writing on. After his Mom dried her hands on an apron, she read it, and this is what it said: 


For cutting the grass: $5.00 
For cleaning up my room this week: $1.00 
For going to the store for you: $.50 
Baby-sitting my kid brother while you went shopping: $.25 
Taking out the garbage: $1.00 
For getting a good report card: $5.00 
For cleaning up and raking the yard: $2.00 
Total owed: $14.75


Well, his mother looked at him standing there, and the boy could see the memories flashing through her mind. She picked up the pen, turned over the paper he'd written on, and this is what she wrote: 

For the nine months I carried you while you were growing inside me: 
No Charge 

For all the nights that I've sat up with you, doctored and prayed for you: 
No Charge 

For all the trying times, and all the tears that you've caused through the years: 
No Charge 

For all the nights that were filled with dread, and for the worries I knew were ahead: 
No Charge 

For the toys, food, clothes, and even wiping your nose: 
No Charge 

Son, when you add it up, the cost of my love is: 
No Charge. 

When the boy finished reading what his mother had written, there were big tears in his eyes, and he looked straight at his mother and said, "Mom, I sure do love you." And then he took the pen and in great big letters he wrote: "PAID IN FULL".