Monday, 23 July 2012

Relationship...

Relationship or Relationshit??



hari ni aku nak cakap pasal relationship. Hubungan. But mostly dalam pandangan seorang perempuan.(Aku perempuankan? hehe ) Aku memerhati keadaan sekeliling aku lately. n aku sedar sesuatu. semua orang bila mereka dah sayangkan seseorang mereka sanggup buat apa sahaja. esp perempuan.

Aku tengok ada yang sanggup hidup dalam teka-teki hanya kerana tak sanggup lepaskan orang yang dia sayang. Aku tengok ada yang sanggup hidup dalam bayang-bayang cinta lalu kerana tak sanggup move on. Aku tengok ada yang sanggup terluka, makan hati serta dihina agar orang yang disayangi gembira. Itu belum lagi masuk part menyintai seseorang dalam diam. Hmm.. 

Pada aku perempuan yang hidupnya mcm ni sangat kuat. Kenapa? Kerana sanggup telan rasa sakit hati, terluka dan pedihnya dalam menyayangi seorang lelaki. Betul lah kata orang, perempuan mahkluk yang setia. Mereka sanggup merasai semua itu demi insan lain. 

Lelaki tidak tahu bertapa payahnya lakukan semua ini. Lelaki tak tahu payahnya nak kekalkan cinta dalam hati ini bila seluruh dunia meragui hubungan yang dibina. Lalaki tak tahu bertapa payahnya nak pegang kata-kata cinta yang kamu lafazkan apabila seluruh dunia menyuruh untuk berhenti mencintaimu. Lelaki tak tahu. dan takkan pernah tahu.. 



Orang lain dengan mudah kata "lepaskanlah.." dan "berhentilah.." tp demi cinta dihati sesetengah perempuan sanggup telan agar dirinya terus disayangi. Nampak menyedihkan right? But try satu hari nanti kalau kamu berada dalam situasi itu, baru tahu tinggi atau rendahnya langit masa itu. 

Perempuan sekali sayang, akan terus sayang. Kadang kala perempuan tahu yang dikejarnya bayang-bayang, yang diimpikannya angan-angan tetapi tetap diteruskan sayang. Kadang-kadang perempuan kata "penatnya aku menyintai dia.." tetapi tetap tak sanggup pergi dari hubungan itu. Kenapa? Kerana dia sayang. Kerana dia kenal lelaki itu. Kerana dia tahu walau seburuk mana lelaki itu melayannya, namun dia percaya jauh dari dalam sudut hati lelaki itu, tetap ada sayang untuk dirinya.. Entah keyakinan apa yang merasuknya. Tapi itulah besarnya kasih sayang seorang perempuan. 


Jangan kata ini semua satu kebodohan. Kerana if ini satu kebodohan, apa gunanya wujud kasih sayang dan perasaan cinta itu? Bukankah kasih sayang perlu diberi dan disebarkan? Hmm.. Mungkin salah perempuan itu juga kerana menyintai pada yang tak sudi, menyintai pada yang tak tahu menghargai, tapi cinta tidak boleh dikawalkan? Tidak boleh ditentukan kan? So, apa perlu seorang perempuan itu buat lagi bila dia dah sayang pada lelaki yang hanya tahu menyakiti? 



Sighh.. Oklah, itu sahaja. 
untuk semua perempuan yang mencintai lelaki tetapi kurang dihargai, bersabarlah. Tabahlah.. moga satu hati nanti terbuka hatinya untuk menghargai dirimu. Akan tetapi jika dia tetap tidak boleh lakukannya, bukan salahmu.. bukan kerana kekuranganmu.. kamu sudah berusaha menyayanginya, cuma mungkin jodoh kamu bukan dengannya.. Mengalahlah.. :") 


Apa aku cakap ini adalah berdasarkan permerhatian aku pada orang sekeliling aku. Apa yang aku lihat, apa yang aku perhati. itu sahaja. Tiada kena mengena dengan hubungan sesiapa. 





Take care :")



Sunday, 22 July 2012

Owwwhhhh....

Hey guys! hehe. Post ni aku tegur plak kan. Yang tadi tak. hehe. Well, this post aku nak share something. actually sebuah lagu. Kalau sesapa kenal aku, dia tahulah aku suka KEVIN WOO from UKISS. Dia ni cinta kedua lepas GDRAGON. hehe. 

So, aku try lah cari lagu-lagu dia. Lagu yang dia cover n lagu yang dia nyanyi masa dia dalam XING. Boleh tahan banyak lah. hehe. 

But ada satu lagu ni yang wat aku rasa pedih je dengar. So, aku nak share lah pada korang. Hope u guys like it. ENJOY! :DD

Ni video dia, dia takde official MV rasanya. Aku google tak jumpa-jumpa pun. Btw lagu ni ada Korean version, but aku suka english version more. :) 

Please forget our memories by Kevin woo (XING) 




So, this is the lyric.... 


"This can't go on.
It's for the best of us.
I can't seem to stop the tears rolling down and forcing on a smile.
Don't wanna show my tears.
I would be so less of a man.
I couldn't even do the one thing. How foolish can I be?

Please forget our memories. Baby please forget our memories.
Just leave and don't ever come back to me.
You don't deserve a guy like me.
Don't look back just turn away
Baby don't look back just turn away.
I know I'll regret it.
But I just want what's best for you and me.

I will be fine.
I always will be fine.
I'll do anything to make you happy.
That's what I desire.
But this is hard for me.
I can not even find the words to say to you what is on my mind.
How foolish can I be?

Please forget our memories. Baby please forget our memories.
Just leave and don't ever come back to me.
You don't deserve a guy like me.
Don't look back just turn away
Baby don't look back just turn away.
I know I'll regret it.
But I just want what's best for you and me.

And though I gave her up in my life.
She will never live deep in my heart.
Things did not go according to the plan.
Whoa yeah~
I made my decision of letting go but I can't seem to know why I keep holding on to her.
Oh whoa~

Please forget our memories. Baby please forget our memories.
Just leave and don't ever come back to me.
You don't deserve a guy like me.
Don't look back just turn away
Baby don't look back just turn away.
I know I'll regret it.
But I just want what's best for you and me.

Ooh~ Whoa~

I just want what's best for~ you and me."


aku rasa mcm someone nyanyi untuk aku lagu ni. hmmm.. 


take care. :')

A song that....


A song dedicated to my life. A song dedicated to my love. 
PEACE!! 





I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?


Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember,
The people we used to be...
It's even harder to picture,
That you're not here next to me.

You say it's too late to make it,
But is it too late to try?
And in our time that you wasted
All of our bridges burned down

I've wasted my nights,
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed,
Still stuck in that time,
When we called it love,
But even the sun sets in paradise

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?

If "Happy Ever After" did exist,
I would still be holding you like this
 All those fairy tales are full of shit
One more fucking love song, I'll be sick.


Oh, you turned your back on tomorrow
'Cause you forgot yesterday.
I gave you my love to borrow,
But you just gave it away.


You can't expect me to be fine,
I don't expect you to care
I know I've said it before,
But all of our bridges burned down


I've wasted my nights,
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed,
Still stuck in that time,
When we called it love,
But even the sun sets in paradise

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?

If "Happy Ever After" did exist,
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairy tales are full of shit
One more fucking love song, I'll be sick.
Now I'm at a payphone

[Explicit version verse (Wiz Khalifa):]
Man, fuck that shit
I'll be out spending all this money
While you're sitting round wondering
Why it wasn't you who came up from nothing,
Made it from the bottom
Now when you see me I'm stunning,
And all of my cars start with a push of a button

Telling me the chances I blew up
Or whatever you call it,
Switch the number to my phone
So you never could call it,
Don't need my name on my shirt,
You can tell it I'm ballin.

Swish, what a shame could have got picked
Had a really good game but you missed your last shot
So you talk about who you see at the top
Or what you could have saw but sad to say it's over for.
Phantom pulled up valet open doors
Wiz like go away, got what you was looking for
Now it's me who they want, so you can go and take
That little piece of shit with you.

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?

If "Happy Ever After" did exist,
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairy tales are full of shit
One more fucking love song, I'll be sick.
Now I'm at a payphone...


US. 

Take care. :"(

Saturday, 14 July 2012

What i have learned...


#sighhhh.. 




I've learned - That you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.


I've learned - that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.

I've learned - that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.

I've learned - that it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.

I've learned - that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you'd better know something.

I've learned - that it's not what happens to people that's important. It's what they do about it.

I've learned - that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I've learned - that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I've learned - that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I've learned - that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

I've learned - that learning to forgive takes practice.

I've learned - that money is a lousy way of keeping score. 

I've learned - that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned - that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I've learned - that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many years you've lived.

I've learned - that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed you.

I've learned - that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned - that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others.

Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned - that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

l've learned - that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other and just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I've learned - that sometimes you have to put the individual ahead of their actions.

I've learned - that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I've learned - that no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get hurt and you will hurt in the process.

I've learned - that there are many ways of falling and staying in love.

I've learned - that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

I've learned - that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

I've learned - that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains.

I've learned - that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I've learned - that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon.


Take care. :")



Thursday, 12 July 2012

I Wonder If You hurt Like me...

Hey there, apa khabar? Hehe. Ok, hari ni aku nak share about satu lagu ni yang buat aku terasa skit dengan lirik dia. Actually tajuk dia pun buat aku terasa dah. Hehe. Bukan nak apa-apa just nak share je apa perasaan aku bila waktu malam, sorang-sorang and teringatkan ...... :') 

Okay, ni liriknya in terjemahan bahasa inggeris. ENJOY. huh? HAHAHA. :") 

i wonder if you hurt like me by 2AM. 




"As I think only of you all day
A single stream of tears flow on its own

Step by step, I see you
So even as I work, tears flow without me knowing

Even when I sing
Even when I walk the streets
I'm filled with thoughts of you

 I wonder if you hurt like me
I wonder if you cry like me
I wonder if you live all day in memories like me

There are many things to laugh about forcibly
Like a wind-up doll, like it's my job, I laugh

Even when I watch TV
Even when I meet my friends
I'm filled with thoughts of you

 I wonder if you hurt like me
I wonder if you cry like me
I wonder if you live all day in memories like me

Because I smile every day
Because I show my smiles,
They think I am happy

But how can I smile, how can I smile without you
I smile and I smile but tears flow again... "




P/s : bukan nak buat sape-sape tak selesa but Just bg aku peluang untuk luahkan okay? :")



Take care. :)

Monday, 9 July 2012

Drink and Drive..


Hey mom..

 Hey there, aku jumpa ni hari tuh and ngek, terasa dalam hati. So now aku buat PSA kat blog aku. hehe. Please read and take note. :)) 



I went to a party Mom,
I remembered what you said.
You told me not to drink,
Mom, So I drank soda instead.

I really felt proud inside, Mom,
The way you said I would.
I didn't drink and drive, Mom,
Even though the others said I should.

I know I did the right thing, Mom,
I know you are always right.
Now the party is finally ending, Mom,
As everyone is driving out of sight.

As I got into my car, Mom,
I knew I'd get home in one piece.
Because of the way you raised me,
So responsible and sweet.

I started to drive away, Mom,
But as I pulled out into the road,
The other car didn't see me, Mom,
And hit me like a load.:(

As I lay there on the pavement, Mom,
I hear the policeman say,
"The other guy is drunk," Mom,
And now I'm the one who will pay.

I'm lying here dying, Mom....
I wish you'd get here soon.
How could this happen to me, Mom?
My life just burst like a balloon.

There is blood all around me, Mom,
And most of it is mine.
I hear the medic say, Mom,
I'll die in a short time.

I just wanted to tell you, Mom,
I swear I didn't drink.
It was the others, Mom.
The others didn't think.

He was probably at the same party as I.
The only difference is, he drank
And I will die.

Why do people drink, Mom?
It can ruin your whole life.
I'm feeling sharp pains now.
Pains just like a knife.

The guy who hit me is walking, Mom,
And I don't think it's fair.
I'm lying here dying
And all he can do is stare.

Tell my brother not to cry, Mom.
Tell Daddy to be brave.
And when I go to heaven, Mom,
Put "GOOD BOY " on my grave.

Someone should have told him, Mom,
Not to drink and drive.
If only they had told him, Mom,
I would still be alive.

My breath is getting shorter, Mom.
I'm becoming very scared.
Please don't cry for me, Mom.
When I needed you, you were always there.

I have one last question, Mom.
Before I say good bye.
I didn't drink and drive,
So why am I the one to die?


SO never DRINK and DRIVE ...

Take care. ><

Them.. :)

Hey there.. 


Dah lama tak online. How are you? I'm fine.. Hehe. 
Aku skang dah okay-okay saja. I mean my emotion boleh lah. Tak pikir apa sangat. Aku lebih tenang. I guess duduk rumah buat aku rasa lebih baik. hehe. 


Aku mula jumpa dengan kawan-kawan lama aku. Hari tuh jumpa faiz, erin and akma. Kiteorang g trip sekolah lama. Erin punya idea lah ni. hehe. 










aku mula-mula malas nak pergi but after aku pikir-pikir, why not kan? Apa je boleh jadi. Paling-paling pun cikgu tanya itu ini and then tu jek. Hehe. 


so kami pergilah hari tuh. Okaylah, semua berjalan dengan lancar. Even ada gak soalan yang memedihkan hati but bolehlah. Faiz lebih banyak diserang oleh cikgu-cikgu. Kesian dia but apa aku leh buat. hehe. 


Aku tengok cikgu-cikgu ni gembira giler jumpa kiteorg. Serius aku tak sangka sampai terjerit-jerit camtuh skali cikgu-cikgu nampak kami. Terharu gak! :) 


Pada masa tuh aku sedar yang cikgu pun rindu anak murid dia. Kalau kami takde, siapa lagi nak melawat diorang. even macamana pun waktu kami belajar dgn cikgu-cikgu ni, mereka tetap berjasa pada kami semua. n semua orang suka dihargai. hehe :) 


Btw, cikgu ada cadangkan untuk kami semua berkumpul sebelum puasa. N aku rasa cadangan ni sangat okayy. So kawan-kawan, please cari masa untuk berkumpul. Aku rindu korang sangat-sangat. Kalau boleh peluk, dah peluk dah. (termasuk budak laki aku nak peluk. Opss!!) Hehe. :p


Hope kiita dapat jumpa dalam masa terdekatt. N aku pun sedar masa berlalu dengan cepat n orang-orang yang selama ini berada disekeliling kita boleh pergi sekelip mata sahaja. hehe 
:) <3 


rindu anda semua. >.<


Tp diorg ni yang paling-paling aku rindu. SEMUA! >.<


Take care. :) 

Sunday, 1 July 2012

Love just never enough...

Hey there.. :) 



Hmm.. now i'm in johor bahru. Yup, home sweet home! :DD


Hmm, aku sampai pagi semalam. Penat ooo naik bas 12 jam. patah tulang belakang kott. :(
N tahu tak aku hampir kena tinggal bas. Kyaaaaaa! >,< 
Pukul 8.10 malam teksi datang n bas aku bertolak pukul 8.00 malam. So, bayangkan lah macamana nak nanges aku masa tuh. Serius takot sangat tak boleh balik johor.. *sedih* 


Tapi syukur tuhan orang bas tuh tgu so here i am. Kat rumah. Save and Sound. LOL. 
Sampai je kat johor n tengok sekeliling esp lalu kat taman mutiara rini kenangan datang bertimpa-timpa. Adoi, dalam keta tuh feeling mcm dalam music video. Tak boleh blah btol. Hehe. :p


But serius sedih tengok tuh sume. Airmata nak jatuh je, tp aku tahan n act strong. Padahal dalam hati, BANJIR! hahaha! 


Aku rindu kenangan tuh sume. Aku tak kuat nak tengok tuh sume. Yelah, aku boleh bayangkan apa yang aku pernah buat satu masa dulu kat situ dengan ........ 
but now, just lalu jelah... N tutup mata dengan tutup hati. *hembus nafas* 


Malam ni aku update blog because aku nampak post kawan aku ni n how much dia rindu kenangan dulu. Kenangan bersama orang tersayang bila dia pergi tempat yang diorang selalu pergi. Like seriusly kawan, aku paham perasaan kau. Rasa sesak nafas je bila ada kat tempat yang banyak kenangan.. *sigh* 


Apepun now aku banyak habiskan masa tengok tv. Yelah, nak buat apa ag. Tengok oneHD, kbs and MTV. Channel-channel ni je peneman aku. N bila aku tengok lagu-lagu kpop or english yang buat aku teringat-ingat, cepat-cepat aku tukar.. But sometimes saja je nak layan perasaan n sing a long. Hehe. :") 


Anyway, aku akan try be okayy n stay strong. i miss him but nothing i can do anymore. :')


Take care. :')