Back to reality..

Hey there..

it's me pikah. Today aku nak cakap pasal..


Guys, i just lost my first love yesterday.. *sad*
Kyaaaaaaa >,<


Semalam semuanya sudah berakhir. Aku rasa ni yang aku cari. Aku tahu di mana kedudukan aku dalam hati dia dr dulu ag but susah aku nak terima. But yesterday tiba-tiba i know aku kena stop hoping n menderita. Better this dari aku ternanti-nanti terus..
Hmm..


Guys, mencintai tak semestinya memiliki kan? (kata-kata mcm senang je cakap) But try buat lah dulu baru tahu payahnya. HAHAHA. :)


Aku rasa jauh dr sudut hati aku dr dulu ag, aku tahu yg aku takkan ada peluang.  Kami ni saling memahami but takde apa yang boleh kita buat to stay together. bukan aku tak try but this time i need to protect hati aku n move on dulu..


This guy kan first love aku. FIRST LOVE. so kemana-mana aku pergi kenangan bersama dia aku takkan lupakan. Hell yeah, sume berkaitan aku ada je kena mengena pasal dia. Hehe. :)


Kami dah janji akan stay kawan. I mean i can't LOVE him mcm apa yang aku nak anymore but aku tetap care n amik kisah pasal dia. (even dia tak percaya kata-kata aku ni n kata aku menipu dia serta Bullshit blah blah blah) HAHAHA. Takpelah, satu hari nanti mungkin dia akan sedar kott. :))


So now, aku kena teruskan hidup. I know ianya sangat susah. Aku sudah terbiasa ada dia kat sisi aku. Kami suka ketawa sama-sama, bergurau sama-sama even mostly ada minat yang sama. n every night i can't dating with him anymore n wish him goodnight.. Hmm nampaknya, kena isi masa kosong dgn benda lain ni. n i think dia pun boleh hidup tanpa aku kat sisi dia sekarang. Baguslah. :)


*i'm crying right now* T.T


Fuhhh *tarik nafas* Okay, i just wanna say Thanks for everything. Thanks tok kenangan yang awak beri pada sya. thanks tok sume senyuman dan ketawa yang awak share dengan sya. Thanks sebab pernah percaya pada sya. Thanks sebab try jalan lambat dengan sya. ( i know sya jalan lambat ). Thanks sebab pegang tangan saya bila nak lintas jalan. (Kadang-kadang boleh lintas sendiri, tp saje nak mengedik) 
n mostly Thanks sebab sudi nanges sama-sama dengan saya bila tahu ayah saya meninggal. (itu satu perkara tentang awak yang saya takkan lupa) Thanks Dear for everything.. :))


Saya tak nak sweet talk dgn awak ag, but i hope awak bahagia. Be happy. Jangan marah-marah jek. N jangan negatif sangat. Yeah, i know nothing bout you but trust me, i'm the one yg berada dgn awak selama beberapa tahun ni. I'm the one yg teman awak selama ni. semua countless night, takkan sya tak cukup memahami lagi? (kecuali family awak lah) Even skit reaksi awak berubah, i know mood awak camne. n sya tahu awak tahu tuh. But it's okay. Awak dah independent now. Trust no one right? Good for you. :)


Apepun Kita still kawan kan awak? Yelah, fb awak ada twitter pun awak ada. Mana saya nak lari. N Sya mintak maaf k if ada sakitkan hati awak. I'm not perfect. hehe. Saya akan jadi lebih kuat dan tak mudah mengalah. Saya akan try tak pikirkan awak serta nanges ingatkan awak. Well, whatever it is sya tetap takleh nak benci awak. Sia-sia lah cinta saya selama ni kalau sya benci orang yang saya cintai. Baik tak payah cinta. HAHAHA. 


n still i need more time to deal with sume ni. Kyaaaaaa stay strong pikah! :DD 


Okay, i will talk later kalau saya still sedih ingatkan awak. Maybe akan ada post lain or saya okay2 saja. Coz sya tak berani jamin sya tak kan rindukan awak. sorry. >< 


Okay, this is it. Take care dear. Bubye. :))

(korang mst kata why tak unfollow dia or unfriend dia, well aku rasa tuh sume useless.) Dia tak hidup kat twitter or facebook sume, dia hidup dalam hati aku, dalam fikiran aku n dalam kenangan aku. (N kan kalau buang twitter n facebook lagi senang nak lupakan dia) Really? Even setiap benda yang aku pandang pun ada bayangan dia. so how tuh membantu? I know aku mcm cari alasan now, but i think better like this. kalau aku dah tak tahan nanti aku buang k. don't worry :)

Exam is OVER...

Hey there.. 

Kyaaaaaa! >.< 

Aku baru balik dari exaam foreign policy n guest what? Aku TAK DAPAT JAWAB. Grrrrrrr! Am i that stupid? T.T 

Aku dah study dah malam td dah. aku dah hafal dah why US serang IRAQ, what MFP towards ASEAN, What is national interest n blah blah blah. But F**K satu pun TAK kuar!! 

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!! *frustrated*

So td tuh bila aku buka kertas soalan aku dah berdebar. Kawan aku cakap dia pun tak baca apa yg ditanya tuh. So just boleh senyum jelah. But dalm hati ADOIYAI!! :( 

Actually sedih kott.. sedih sangat sebab tak dapat jawab. Dah lah ni subjek Minor aku in LAW. Ape pun tak boleh lah. Grrrr!! :// 

so now just boleh tunggu result jek. Dahlah Malaysian Foreign Policy aku tak dapat jawab hari tuh, now Foreign Policy plak. Memang PERFECT!! :((

Perasaan aku masa jawab FOREIGN POLICY. T.T 

Malam ni nak g party puas-puas. Malas nak perdulik pape dah! >,< 

Take care. :( 

Last time...

If I knew it would be the last time... :')

If I knew it would be the last time that I'd see you fall asleep, I would tuck you in more tightly and pray the GOD, your soul to keep. 

If I knew it would be the last time that I see you walk out the door, I would give you a hug and kiss and call you back for one more. 

If I knew it would be the last time I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise, I would video tape each action and word, so I could play them back day after day. 

If I knew it would be the last time, I could spare an extra minute or two to stop and say "I love you," instead of assuming, you would know I do. 

If I knew it would be the last time I would be there to share your day, well I'm sure you'll have so many more, so I can let just this one slip away. 


There will always be another day to say our "I love you's", And certainly there's another chance to say our "Anything I can do's?" 

But just in case I might be wrong, and today is all I get, I'd like to say how much I love you and I hope we never forget, 

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone, young or old alike, And today may be the last chance you get to hold your loved one tight. 

So if you're waiting for tomorrow, why not do it today? 

For if tomorrow never comes, you'll surely regret the day, That you didn't take that extra time for a smile, a hug, or a kiss and you were too busy to grant someone, what turned out to be their one last wish. 

So hold your loved ones close today, whisper in their ear, Tell them how much you love them and that you'll always hold them dear, Take time to say "I'm sorry," "please forgive me," "thank you" or "it's okay". 
And if tomorrow never comes, you'll have no regrets about today

Hey guys, i found this hari tuh n ayat dia memang sangat menyentuh hati. Hope u guys pun rasa benda yang sama. Enjoy. ) 

Take care. :) 

Cute guy..

Hey there! i just come back from cafe. 


Anyway, today i wanna sharing about this one cute guy yg f**king CUTE!! Yes, First time i saw him and i just sooooo melting. i don't know why and i don't know how.. Hehe *shy* 

i'm taking his picture from his twitter. :) 

His name is Danial. i think his is under 20 years old. and live in Australia. He is taking Business Management.  (i think soo) LOL 


So, this is his videos. ENJOY!! 


https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=endscreen&NR=1&v=Fn6ODTSc7ks


Dalam video yg ni, dia bercakap jek. N guess what, DIA SANGAT COMELLLL!!! :DD


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vf7XBR-R_bs&feature=relmfu


Dalam video ni dia nyanyi lagu LONELY - 2NE1. n memang CUTEEEE!! 


Gosh pikah, control yourself! LOL HAHAHA! 


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hm2ErmHMaZg&feature=relmfu


N this one yg buat aku jatuh hati sangat-sangat. Kecomelan dia tiada tolak bandingnya. Woohooo!! 
Melting~ Melting~ 

cute right? Please subscribe him on YOUTUBE. :)  

hahaha. Okay, ni saja. see you next time. 


P/S : I'm not own any of this picture. i'm just sharing. hope his don't mind. peace! :) 


Take care. :) 

Life story..

Hello there. XD 

Okay, this time i wanna share great story about friendship. Enjoy.. :) 

A life changing story.. 

Mark was walking home from school one day when he noticed the boy ahead of him had tripped and dropped all of the books he was carrying, along with two sweaters, a baseball bat, a glove and a small tape recorder. 

Mark knelt down and helped the boy pick up the scattered articles. Since they were going the same way, he helped to carry part of the burden. As they walked Mark discovered the boy's name was Bill, that he loved video games, baseball and history, and that he was having lots of trouble with his other subjects and that he had just broken up with his girlfriend. 

They arrived at Bill's home first and Mark was invited in for a Coke and to watch some television. The afternoon passed pleasantly with a few laughs and some shared small talk, then Mark went home.

They continued to see each other around school, had lunch together once or twice, then both graduated from junior high school. They ended up in the same high school where they had brief contacts over the years. 

Finally the long awaited senior year came and three weeks before graduation, Bill asked Mark if they could talk.

"Bill reminded him of the day years ago when they had first met. "Did you ever wonder why I was carrying so many things home that day?" asked Bill. "You see, I cleaned out my locker because I didn't want to leave a mess for anyone else. I had stored away some of my mothers sleeping pills and I was going home to commit suicide. But after we spent some time together talking and laughing, I realized that if I had killed myself, I would have missed that time and so many others that might follow.

So you see, Mark, when you picked up those books that day, you did a lot more, you saved my life.

A simple gesture like this could make a lot of difference. Be good to people. To you it would be nothing, but somewhere at some point of time you are leaving the imprints of your personality in someone's heart ♥ :)

This story is really meaningfull right? This is not my story but sure as hell i like this story. <3 <3 <3 


Take care. :) 

Meet My Hubby..

Hello there. 

How are you guys today? Me, i'm bored. XDD 

Okay, today aku nak kenalkan korang dengan someone yang sangat bermakna dalam hidup aku. Nama dia ialah Kwon Ji Yong aka GDRAGON!!! 

Do you know him? Hehe . Aku panggil dia Hubby aku. Dia berasal dari korea. Yeah yeah i know korang kata stupidnya aku minat someone yang tak kenal aku ni sapa. But wait, before korang judge, dengr cakap aku ni dulu. Hehe. 

Aku kenal dia tima dia n Group dia BIGBANG tengah buat persembahan lagu LAST FAREWELL kat MUSIC BANK (Music bank ni mcm juara lagu but korea punya version) So dari cara kumpulan Bigbang ni menari, aku terus jatuh hati. Memang jatuh hati giler lah. Then aku mula cari pasal diorg. Trust me, masa tuh nak cari pasal KPOP sangat lah SUSAH! nobody know apa itu KPOP n sapa diorg. Tp aku tak pernah mintak tolong sape-sape. Aku usaha sendiri demi minat aku. hehe.

:)

So, aku mula tengok macam-macam cerita korea. N time tuh cerita MUSIC BANK tu mana ada tulisan English. cerita-cerita drama diorg pun mana ada tulisan English. Just tengok plain Korean jelah. SUSAH kan? hehe. So after aku tahu sikit-sikit and aku kumpul maklumat pasal diorang, baru aku tahu sapa tuh BIGBANG and sapa tuh GDRAGON. :)

Dia ni leader, lahir 8 ogos tahun 1988. Kalau dia rap, pergh!! Lil wayne pun kalah lah. Hahaha! 

Dia ni sangat berbakat kalau tulis lagu or compose lagu. Lagu famous dia macam Lies tuh buat BIGBANG dapat pengiktirafan KPOP n FANS diorg. termasuk lah aku sekali. :)) 

Bigbang punya FANS dipanggil VIP  n OFFICIAL COLOR  dia YELLOW. cool kan? hehehe. :) 

but tak payah cakap banyak lah, jom tgk gambar! :) 

BIGBANG. :)

Ni antara gambar terbaru diorang. :) 

Now, lets meet my hubby.. :) 

ni GDRAGON masa kecik! :)

ni pun sama.:)

Btw, GD ni ada banyak style so jangan terkejut okayy. :)                         

Simple je. :)

dia n rambut KUNING dia. :)

ni time rambut merah.:) 

Atotototo cutenya!! :)

Cool! :)

ni masa Photoshot majalah. :)

Tolong!! :)

sangat comel. :) 

ni antara gambar favorite aku. :) 

LOL him. :P

ni tatto dia. Aku tak minat lah. Just nak tunjuk je. hehe. :) 

Okeylah, sampai sini saja aku post. Aku tak owner gambar-gambar ni atas k. Just aku post je. hehe. ENJOY! 

P/S : Jangan berani cakap dia buat plastic surgery or other shit. Dia just buat GIGI je k. Bagi cantik senyuman dia. :) Peace!! 

BIGBANG IS VIP, I'M VIP, FOREVER VIP. 

Take care. :)

Just wanna share this. I'm missing someone right now. And this picture.. Sigh.. :( 

I WISH....

Take care. :(

Another Love Story..

WHAT IS LOVE? 

He met her at a party. She was so outstanding, many guys chasing after her, while he was so normal, nobody paid attention to him. 

At the end of the party, he invited her to have coffee with him, she was surprised but due to being polite, she promised. They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was too nervous to say anything, she felt uncomfortable, and she thought to herself, "Please, let me go home..." 

Suddenly he asked the waiter, "Would you please give me some salt? I'd like to put it in my coffee." Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face turned red but still, he put the salt in his coffee and drank it. She asked him curiously, "Why you have this hobby?" 


He replied, "When I was a little boy, I lived near the sea, I liked playing in the sea, I could feel the taste of the sea, just like the taste of the salty coffee. Now every time I have the salty coffee, I always think of my childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss my parents who are still living there."




While saying that tears filled his eyes. She was deeply touched. That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart. A man who can tell out his homesickness, he must be a man who loves home, cares about home, has responsibility of home... Then she also started to speak, spoke about her faraway hometown, her childhood, her family. 

That was a really nice talk, also a beautiful beginning of their story. They continued to date. She found that actually he was a man who meets all her demands; he had tolerance, was kind hearted, warm, careful. He was such a good person but she almost missed him! Thanks to his salty coffee! 


Then the story was just like every beautiful love story, the princess married to the prince, and then they were living the happy life... And, every time she made coffee for him, she put some salt in the coffee, as she knew that's the way he liked it. 

After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter which said,

 "My dearest, please forgive me, forgive my whole life's lie. This was the only lie I said to you---the salty coffee. Remember the first time we dated? I was so nervous at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt. It was hard for me to change so I just went ahead. I never thought that could be the start of our communication! I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to lie to you for anything.. Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth, I don't like the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste... But I have had the salty coffee for my whole life! Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anything I do for you. Having you with me is my biggest happiness for my whole life. If I can live for the second time, still want to know you and have you for my whole life, even though I have to drink the salty coffee again." 

Her tears made the letter totally wet. Someday, someone asked her, "What's the taste of salty coffee?" She replied, "It's sweet." 

love is not to forget but to forgive, not to see but understand, not to hear but to listen, not to let go but HOLD ON!!!

p/s : i want this kind of love story.. <3 <3 <3 

Take care. :)

Anak-Anak ku.. :)

Anak. Korang tahu apa itu anak? Aku ni belum kahwin ag, but aku ada ramai anak-anak yang aku sayang sangat. hehe :)


Actually diorg ni bukan anak aku pun. Diorg ni budak-budak yang mak aku jaga. Hari-hari aku bersama diorang sewaktu belum masuk University ag. Diorg nilah Penawar n pengubat hati aku. Kalau aku happy, Aku peluk diorg. Kalau aku sedih or marah, aku dengki diorg. Jahat tak aku? Hehe. *just joking okayy*


Diorg ni terdiri dari anak orang lain dan anak sedara aku dua orang n anak mak cik aku dua orang. Ramai kan? But i Love them sooo MUCHHHHHHH!! :DD


Ni antara gambar diorg. :

ni anak sedara aku. : Qaseh and Aril. :)

Ni Aqeesh (anak makcik) <3

Ni gambar Qaseh dengki Aqeesh. hehe :)

Qaseh n Aril ag. :) 

Ni Areesya (anak makcik)

Ni budak-budak yang mak jaga. (sorry blur) 

Mereka ni Hero kampung pisang. (sorry blur) 

Ni namanya Danisha Husna. Panggil Icha atau Nun atau Chanuna atau kakak. hehe :)

ni mira. (degil gak dia ni. Grrrr) <3

Actually banyak gak anak-anak aku, tp takde gambar. Next time aku post aku letak gambar k. Ok, sampai sini sahaja. Bubye! :) 


Take care. :)

Missing..

Hey there, it's me pikah. :) 

Hmm, lately my life got pretty boring. I don't know what should i do. i do have exams and this exams is very important. But i don't know. i'm not in mood to study right now.. 

You wanna know why? Hmm.. maybe later i will tell you. But this kind of feeling,  i wish nobody feel it. I WISH.. #Truestory babe. :)) 

Guys, can we quit on love? can we? did you guys got any ideas how to stop our heart from keep missing someone? i want to know... coz here i am keep missing him. i wish he know.. :( 

Every night i'm wondering if he miss me? if he thinking about me? and blah blah blah. Sad life right? HAHAHA. 

Okay, i will stop now. I will talk later. *because i wanna cry right now* :)

take care. :)

Hey, it's me again. i found this on net few days ago. So sweet and very meaningful. 

 'I will treat you like a Dog.

we will play together,

wrestle,

snuggle,

watch TV together.'

'When you tired and its time for bed,

we will both sleep together.

When you're bored,

we will play hide'n'seek

until we both can't stop laughing.'

'When you are hurt,

I will rush over in an instant to help.

When you are having trouble,

I will help you in every way.'

'And when we have grown old together,

I will stand by your side and hope,

Hope that you don't have to live without me

because I can't live without you..'

'I will never forget you 

and you will always have 

a special place in my heart..'

Lovely right? i know. :)


Take care. :) 

Reasons..

Hello there. 

This is my second post. Cepat kan? Well, trying untuk luahkan semua skang ni. Hehe. :) So what should aku cakapkan now? Hmm.. about about tujuan aku buat blog ni. Okay gak kan? 

Hmm... First, aku ni bukan lah fan untuk taip panjang-panjang. But lately banyak benda jadi dalam hidup aku n buat aku terdiam. Aku tak reti nak luahkan 100% kat orang. Aku tak mampu.. jadi, lepas aku pikir-pikir, why not aku start Blog. n i know ni adalah cara yang agak stupid disebabkan Blog lagi public, BUT Blog aku ni bukan nak orang follow or pape. ianya just something to lepaskan semua yang terkandung dalam hati. Lepaskan apa yang terkubu di hati. So here i am. :) 

 Pada aku, hidup yang aku jalani sekarang ni sangat mencabar. Why? Because aku ni banyak berfikir. Aku berfikir and terus berfikir sampai otak aku ni nak meletup. Tp aku nak luah tak terluah plak. Boleh je aku tweets or update facebook status but i think nobody understand. Nobody. 

 Pernah tak korang rasa nak nanges but tak tahu nak nanges untuk apa? Pernah? Lately aku rasa camtu. NUMB. DULL. and SENSELESS. Pathetic kan? HAHAHA. 

 So diharapnya dengan kewujudan blog ni aku tak rasa semua ni lagi. Aku tak mampu nak simpan rasa ni dalam diri aku lama-lama. Tak larat kottt.. Hmm..

BUT..

Pada masa yang sama kan even aku rasa NUMB, DULL and SENSELESS, aku akan cerita gak bertapa indahnya hidup aku dikelilingi Family, kawan-kawan aku n semua orang yang aku sayang. Serius, kehadiran mereka buat aku rasa gak yang hidup aku ni bermakna. sayang sangat-sangatlah. hehe <3 

Apepun, aku harap Blog ni membantu aku memjalani hidup dengan lebih baik. Hopefully. AMIN. :)) 

Take care. :)